ONIMA KASHYAP: THE VANISHING FACE OF MY HEART
Everyone has avan...: THE VANISHING FACE OF MY HEART Everyone has a vanishing face in their lives. A face that was once a part of you , but now you are...
Sunday, 18 January 2015
THE VANISHING FACE OF MY HEART
Everyone has a
vanishing face in their lives. A face that was once a part of you , but now you
are detached from it. You shared everything with it..the laughter, the grudges,the
smile, the profound sorrow, the joy ..But a time came when it was no more with
you. You never knew that it was the last time you were seeing that face.. It
just gradually cease to exist as if, it
was never a part of your journey..
It left a mark..some fragnance, whenever you turn back you
find it smiling at you..but with time it goes far away from you..like you are
watching it from a distance that is expanding day by day.
Like watching it fading away from a moving train and it leaves
me to travel on my own..
It has now been concealed deep inside but sometimes with a
moment you want to dig it, search it, accumulate
the part of it and imagine it in heart..
You want to relive the moment with it like the way you once
lived when it was there with you. You crave for that moment, it’s a recreation
of mind, rebuilding of fragments manifesting into a memory. The sparkle, the
laughter , the passion..Is it burning me?
Sometimes you question yourself why was it there, what was
the purpose of it being there and then you realise that it was temporary.. you
mislead yourself by thinking that it was yours forever and finaly comes to
realise that it never belonged to you.. its interim..
The face, I thought was concrete has now transformed into
ashes flying in the air, diffuses into granules but its particles are evident and can be touched.
It comes in dreams to show its existence, but the heart
knows that it has now gone far away, far away at a place where it cant be recollected.
Sometimes you feel.. you are tied with it, laughing in joy,
flowing like a wind but its just a memory that comes in your eyes.
Will it fade completely or it will continue to be seen in
between. It blinks and go, it again blinks and glow..
If its not fading, has it got a home in the heart? does it
lives in it? why cant it just leaves me? why it laughs with me? why it echoes in me?
My journey with it has stopped..I have a path of my own..A
path which is different from where I belonged..But in my path there are mirrors
reflecting the track I belong to, It brings tear to my eyes because I once gave my soul to that track…
But with all my courage I m drifting away from it..Drifting
to find my peace and happiness, to find my sunshine, the purpose of my life…
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